medical...

[Dick Fein]

Last night I was having trouble spelling so I posted phonetically. It was benign. Thanks for asking.

[Lrus007]

i got it, glad it was good news.

[rSin]

heh!
youd think IDA deciphered that one!!!

congrats!

[bentech]

ptsd

I don't remember anything like it this time

boom boom boom boom boom

gunfire

I have to reach down and hold on
lasts about ten seconds

no warning

makes getting anything done difficult

[bentech]

I got two throw the chest
it was bad
nine units of blood on the table
surgeon said no chance

but somehow
I didn't kickoff

I don't remember that first week

the second and the third fucking hurt

[bentech]

gunfire
gunfire
gunfire

I guess its good
me wishing to survive...

[bentech]

I see it now
something
I could let go

[bentech]

but im so fucking trying...

[Intrinsic]

Don't let go
you let your guard down the police state will shoot you again
Sitting on a fence that's a dangerous course you can even catch a bullet from the peacekeeping force- Mark Knopfler


Take care man

[rSin]

Last night was bad
Went through my phone looking for a friendly voice
Was tempted to call my family

So today finds me at riversides
Mental health urgent care

Its a 24 hour deal
They allow phone calls

[rSin]

So it appears i havnt eaten since last thursday

hurts so bad to start back up
Fuck

[rSin]

whew!
caught that quick,
ate for a week,
roof too!

thought it was back to the tent but emergency housing came through
for at least the next week

very unexpected
hell ya

[rSin]

and on the drive to the room
was total space cadet

had to get gas
the checker took a break
posted a note in the window
5 minutes

and im standing there
staring at the big city and bright lights

and about every 90 seconds

I pop back wondering

where the fuck I am

this spot holding disconcertion and elation in the same hand...

[rSin]

the lights were pretty, and
nothing but food for a week...

[bentech]

you cant hurt me
I mean you can, but
the grip has been lost

[rSin]

psst
don't tell anyone, but
been manic for about two weeks now
its fucking great!

cant explain it
everythings sweet now
like seriously
been a long time

I could get used to this...

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